KiDULTHOOD / AdULTHOOD

Watch these 2 movies, seriously.
May not be your type of movie, but it's safe as blad.

"What are you dumb? You're gonna get murked, manz is takin' it for a boi, like, manz is safe an' ting."

For The Rest Of Our Lives

YFC Cluster, '09. Ty, Bonez and Jess.
The house we built in 10 minutes with 15 straws and 3 pieces of tape.

Song: Breathe Me
Artist: SIA
Album: Colour The Small One

My mood swings are tragically confusing.

After writing that previous blog entry with suppressed fury, I decided to kill some time by playing Mafia Wars on Facebook. Seriously addicted to the game, and did some general net-surfing.

After a while, I clicked the blogger tab and decided to re-read the angry entry and... I didn't realise that it was really mean. Why did I type that? But I'm not going to discard it, I tried to get a point across. Maybe one day, when my moods decide to swing again, I'll probably go back to re-read the angry entry and I'll be like "Hell yeah! That's what I'm talking 'bout!" And then play Mafia Wars.

I've realised how much of a monotonous person I really am, I'm hardly as vivacious as I used to be. I don't know about you but I find that a little saddening that I'm starting to become boring. But that's how it is, I don't know if anyone can be funny for the rest of their lives.

It's funny how most people appear to be much more different on their blogs. I'm tedious while writing, though I'm extravagantly loud in real life. How about you?

Off to practice I go.

What Is A Friend?

Don't make a big deal out of it? Ok, I won't.
I'll make a fucking HUGE deal about it.

friend (frnd) noun.

1. A person whom one knows, likes, and trusts.
2. A person whom one knows; an acquaintance.
3. A person with whom one is allied in a struggle or cause; a comrade.
4. One who supports, sympathizes with, or patronizes a group, cause, or movement

Yeah, I had to dictionary.com the word 'friend'.

I get annoyed with people (people I've only ever met or talked to once, or see on a daily basis but never really talk to, partied with once, etc.) and call me their 'friend'. Don't interrupt my conversations with my actual friends and ask/tell me something completely unnecessary just to look like you're my friend, "Fuck off" is all you're gonna get from me.
I don't usually target anyone in particular, but fuck that, I'm targeting my brother and his friends. Teenybopper wankers.

A bunch of year 8s, ok. Fair enough I met all of you boys at my brother's 13th and got along. Just a job I had to do, none of you wanted to talk to my mum 'cause she's "uncool" (FYI she's so cool, she's ice-cold) so I was appointed to looking after the party, and to get to know who all of you were and to analyse your behaviours.

Just 'cause you're friends with my brother doesn't mean you're my fuckin' friend when I've talked to you once in my whole life. Don't expect me to remember you in the next three days, 'cause I won't.

Also, to those who surf MySpace, Bebo, Asiagroove, MyBrute and whatever. Don't tell my friends that you're good friends with me. Don't think that we won't talk about it, 'cause they'll ask me "Do you know a Dianne from blah blah blah, she said that you guys were tight as", because I'll be blunt and straightforward as I'll say "Who the fuck is Dianne?" Prepare yourself for embarrassment 'cause when the day comes to when we finally meet, I'll ask you, "Why did you say you know me?" And don't give me a bullshit answer like, "Oh sorry, I thought you were another Gina." Seriously, fuck off. Make sure you've got the right person before you go opening your mouth. Yeah?

I don't know you, I don't like you and I definitely don't trust you. You're not my fuckin' acquaintance, nor are you a comrade, NOR do you support or sympathize with.

Maybe I don't have as many friends as the guys who smoke, laugh and loiter outside McDonalds after school. But I'm happy with what I've got, I don't need to look popular because my friend count is in the near thousands. I don't wanna be known or discussed about, I'd rather keep it on the down low, real.

Song: Four Horsemen Of 2012
Artist: Klaxons
Album: Myths Of The Near Future

Omg lol, I made my brother cry.
Suck it up.

This Blog Entry Will Change Your Life

Song: Ready For This (Original Dub Mix)
Artist: Robot Man (Michael Gray) Feat. Nanchang Nancy
Album: The Annual 2009 Ministry Of Sound

Late night blogging, and no, I wasn't bullshitting about the title.

Because it's true, this blog entry will change your life.

Depending on how fast you read, I have just stolen an average of 20 seconds of your life, and you will never get them back. Ever.

Jedi Mind, Heavenly Divine, Steadily Shine In '99

Say something. Please?

I will lie till my 'lying gauge' runs out into the negatives. I won't take and tolerate your shit, I won't believe everything I hear. I won't tell your secrets, I won't put you on the spot. I will lie to you, I will listen to you and in my mind I'll possibly disagree with everything you say. In my mind works a clock, as each second passes, my deception grows stronger. My moods swing, from angry to calm, to angry, to calm. I laugh but am I laughing with you? I can play innocent and uncover to be the most deceiving. I am a schemer, I am two-faced. I am a deceiver and that explains why I'm alone.

Now it's up to you to decide which parts of that statement are true and false.

I'll Never Stop

Hanging out, making out.

Sneaking out, passing out.
I'd carve our initials on apples and I'd eat 'em.

Even between the breathing intervals during our awkward silences together,
"Shut up" I'd say.
I'll pounce on you, knock you down and out. I'll slap you and beat you on the floor, you'll cry "Stop!" but I'll just cry. My hands flinging in every direction towards you, you're taking every hit in the gut. Faces wet from tears, blood and spit. Your friends'll pull me off of you and you'd call me insane as you'd walk away.

"Don't walk away" I would quietly plead, tired. Exhausted yet exasparated.
But you don't stop, you start running.

I awake, it was just another nightmare.

"Do you know what hurts the most about a broken heart?
Not being able to remember how you felt before."
- Cassie, Skins.

Forces Of Attraction

Don't mistaken it for 'forcing attraction'.

School seemed like it went for two days.
History in the morning, IT up in Melton for the afternoon, and my last class was chem. Rocky couldn't go deb practice so I decided not to go as well.
Went to Watergardens to pay off the pants I put on layby in Sportsgirl. I love that place, bought new earphones for my brother and I, bought the Triple J Hottest 100 (Volume 16) DVD (it had really good songs on it!) and the Klaxons' album, Myths Of The Near Future. I've been waiting to buy this album for ages, and it's worth it.

Cooked myself up an Easy Mac meal, and if I could choose one thing to eat for the rest of my life, it would definitely be Easy Mac.