Slow Dancing In A Burning Room

I know you're always looking at me. I can feel your eyes locked on me.
You know I'm always looking down at our feet when we're so close.
I'm being sincere when I say that I wasn't looking at your "package".
You know why I look down, and not into your eyes.
Your quiet smile sends shivers down my spine.

I don't want to fall for you. Because in a month or two, this'll be over and we'll be back to the way things were.

Ten, Nine, Eight

Nothing you can do can make up for the things you've done.

Don't think I'll come back soon. Ever.

I'm gonna try something new, it's called a life.

I don't want to spend the rest of my life in love with you.

Dear Ex-boyfriends

All of you, go fuck yourselves.
From, me.

Lookin' For A Special Lady To Save Me, Maybe I'll Never Be Satisfied

When you looked at yourself in the mirror today, what was the first thing you said? "Your hair's in a rut"
Do you like someone? I like everyone
What's a word that rhymes with LUCK? Firetruck
What's your favorite planet? Planet Of The Apes
Who's the 2nd person on your missed call list? Private number
What's your ringtone on your phone right now? Default ringtone; it's some robot going "Wuba wuba, wuba wuba"
What shirt are you wearing right now? The shirt my beefs got me y'day :)
Brand of shoes you're wearing right now? Air LOL
Are you afraid of the dark? No
What do you think about the person who last took this survey? Her name reminds me of pizza
If you're alone in a room with two beds, which one do you sleep on? The waterbed. Definitely the waterbed
What were you doing at midnight last night? CLEANING UP AFTER MY SURPRISE PARTY
What and who did your last text message you received on your mobile say? I got a message from Jonah's mum :
When's the last time you took a shower? This afternoon
What's a word or phrase that you say a lot? Mangz, I say mangz a lot
Who told you he/she loved you last? Jon
Last furry thing you touched? Your balls
How many drugs have you done in the past 3 days? None
How many rolls of film do you need to get developed? 50 million
Favorite age you have been so far? 16 so far, even though it's been like 2 days
Hats or beanies? Both are cool, but I wouldn't wear 'em on a regular basis. And I'd prefer scarves on my head.
What is your desktop picture? David Bowie, psychedelic rock-to-glam rock transition era
What is the last thing you said to someone? Actually, I don't remember. It was over 6 hours ago
Do you love someone? Of course
Last song you listened to? Atlantis To Interzone by The Klaxons
If the last person you spoke to on the phone was getting shot at what would you do? Shit myself
Do you do the games in the ads on MySpace? No
What are your favorite Pjs? I wear 'jama pants and tees, there's nothing favourable about that
What do you do when you pass graveyards? Stare
Have you ever seen a shooting star? No
How old do you think youll live to be? 50 million; 'cause I'm totally on the hunt for the Fountain Of Youth
Song lyrics stuck in your head? "What do you know? Flashing lights lights"
Last time you told someone you loved them? Today. How strange.
Do you eat raw hot dogs? NO NEVER
How much salad dressing do you put on your salad? Depends on which dressing, I OD on Italian balsamic vinegar
What is the last thing you pulled out of your pocket and gave to someone? I pulled out some love from my pocket, and gave some love to a stranger.
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Dax: "Well we both lost the bet, now we can do whatever we want"
Bonez: "But you weren't even trying."
Dax: "...Well, I'm still gonna keep smoking."
Bonez: "What if I told you 'brb I'm gonna shoot up some dope', you'd be cool with that?"
Dax: "Yeah, do whatever you want."
Bonez: "Cocksucker, no wonder why every girl refuses to get down witchu."

Well don't come crying for help when your life fucks over.
You've lost this best friend a million times, you'll lose her for good this time.
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I'm so over smoking. It looks fucking yuck.

Il N'y A Pas De Verités Moyennes

"There are no half-truths."

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It's alright.
I don't know you.
Third letter of the alphabet.
We'll never ever talk, let alone come face to face ever again.
It's alright.

Draw These Strings Tight, Keep Yourself Inside

Today, well yesterday technically, was the awesomest day.
I love my friends and family. I could never ask for better, beautiful people. 'Cause they're the package. The word perfect would be an understatement.
I love you, love you, love you!

I seem like I'm smothering you in love, but you know me, I never say things like this. So you'd better believe it, I mean every word.
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I've been asked if this blog was sincerely written by yours truly.
And to answer; yes, 100%
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A person has never been stuck in my head for this long.
24 hours a day, 7 days a week for a year - plus.

Be My Friend. Hold Me, Wrap Me Up.

Unfold me, I am small.
I'm needy, warm me up.
And breathe me.
Breathe Me by Sia

Today was the longest day, but I loved it. I didn't go to school today (as planned), however, I ruined the surprise party my friends threw for Anthony and I by not attending. I feel ultra guilty, I'll buy a cake and bring it in on Monday just to make up for it :)
Instead of going to school, mum took my brother and I out for lunch at La Porchetta in Watergardens. We ate so much. I did nothing but eat food the whole day. If I were to eat one more bite, I would seriously vomit.
I saw Matthew and caught up with him for a while; spent $44.25 on rings, and $29.95 on shoes that look like uwabakies. And mum bought me nice boots for winter.
We stayed at Watergardens for a tiring 3 hours.
We went home and I opened my laptop, I messaged Let to ask if we had training and she messaged back with the details.
I had a few minutes to get ready and I waited in the car. My aunty came by and started singing 'Happy Birthday' and I went out to greet her. I had my back turned when my best friend ran in, and seriously, we screamed for ages.
We ate cake and had cola.
After that, went to practice and sweated my bawlz off. It was break time and we all went in to bless the food, but I didn't stay to eat. I went outside and practiced some more. Tyrone creeped out to see what I was up to and he realised that I was practicing his choreography. He almost cried, "You're so inspiring, seriously. You're the only one taking dance seriously." and that almost made me cry.
So we ran through the dance for a while and everyone came out to join us. After that, Monique pulls me away from the group to D&M with me. Everyone leaves.
After a few minutes, Let comes into the conversation and tells Monique and I to come inside. I follow her, while in a chokehold.
As we walk in the door, I see cake, pastizzi and nachos on the table and everyone with massive smiles on their faces. They start singing 'Happy Birthday'
"Your mum organized this for you. She rang me 5 minutes ago." Let told me, I tried not to cry.

Tyrone drove Let, Kess, Trish and I home.

I love you guys. I love you mum. Thank you for everything.
Special mention to Sarahdonuts. ;)
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Dear March,
It's the second year you've done this to me.
You're pathetic. We're both pathetic.

Why bother being friends if you're not gonna try?

Bonez.