Arcade Fire

Children wake up,
Our bodies get bigger but our hearts get torn up.
We're just a million little gods causing rain storms,
Turning every good thing to rust.

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Weak

Don't get me wrong, I could definitely live without you.
And with that, I would do just fine.

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SWEET

DISPOSITION


I don't know what to write these days.

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She's A Mystery

Today was the beginning of senior year.

I refuse to let my girls and myself be played;

I'm the one who makes sure the players get played.

I'm setting myself in stone.

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Dreamer

I have too much fun when I'm with you and...
I'm beginning to think that it's wrong.

Happy birthday little brother.

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Michael

I finally get to see you tomorrow,
After a month and a half.
Yay :)

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Damn You Look So Good, It Hurts Me

I told myself not to get too close to the flame;
I couldn't help it, you're just too beautiful.
And because of that, I'm burnt.
And it stings.

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Doesn't Mean Anything

I've found closure,
I don't think I've been this free and happy in a very long time.

I found this really beautiful song on YouTube today

Now I really wanna buy her album, Doesn't Mean Anything.

I really should get back to studying:

( ) adv gen. maths

( ) methods

( ) history

And fuck chemistry, I'm not studying for that :)

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6 Hours And 35 Minutes Until My English Exam

I'm not an addict, maybe, that's a lie.

2 years.
I never knew why you left, until tonight.
Maybe it might be too late to fix things.
Maybe it definitely is too late to fix things.
Maybe I should stop crying tonight so then, my heart'll stop throbbing from the unnecessary pain.

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DESTRUCTIVE

Breath it in and breath it out and pass it on, it's almost out.
We're so creative and so much more; we're high above, but on the floor.
It's not a habit, it's cool, I feel alive;
If you don't have it you're on the other side.
I'm not an addict, maybe that's a lie.
The deeper you stick it in your vein, the deeper the thoughts;
There's no more pain.
I'm in heaven, I'm a God, I'm everywhere; I feel so hot, It's over now.
I'm cold, alone; I'm just a person on my own.
Nothing means a thing to me, oh, nothing means a thing to me.
Free me, leave me; watch me as I'm going down.
Free me, see me; look at me I'm falling and I'm falling.

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Wanna Know What I'm Feeling Doctor? I'm Feeling A Fucking ZERO.

FUCKIDNGDHFIDHFDH USED ME AND SHIT FUCKING MAKE AFUCKING PROFIT OUT OF MY FAMILY. FUCKING WITH YOU I'VE LOST RESPECT,M TRUST, LOVE AND FRIENDSHIP. FUCKING I'M NOT GONNA REVEAL WHO YOU ARE BECAUSE UNLIKE YOU, I HAVE FUCKING DIGNITY AND MORALE.
I'VE KNOWN YOU FOR SO LONG AND YOU TAKE A FAT SHIT ON MY LIFE LIKE THIS. THAT'S IT, FUCK YOU FOREVER.

Black And Gold

I looked up into the night sky and see a thousand eyes staring back.
And all around these golden beacons, I see nothing but black.
I feel a way of something beyond them, I don't see what I can feel.
If vision is the only validation then most of my life isn't real.
'Cause if you're not really here, then the stars don't even matter.
Now I'm filled to the top with fear but it's all just a bunch of matter.
'Cause if you're not really here, then I don't want to be either,
I wanna be next to you.

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I'll Be Just Fine Pretending I'm Not

I would rather lose you than lose myself.

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Ouch

You know I'm always there for you,
Even though you don't share the same concern for me.

I don't want to leave,
but one day I will.
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We Are Hummingbirds Who All Just Know

I'm sorry, I know you can't help it but...
I just can't stand people who snore! :(

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Fantasies, Metric

This is my game face.

I'm taking a well-deserved break (cough-procrastinating more like) from my intense IT 3/4 exam-cram. I bought a jumbo 2L bottle of soy milk and some of that gummy sesame seed and peanut thing from KFL St Albans. That is guaranteed brain-food, ladies and gentlemen. Fuck omega 3!

Things to remember:

- Let's place tomorrow @ 7 to buy dresses

- Optometrist appointment this Sunday @ 1:20pm

- Meriam & Rob's kid's christening this Sunday @ 5 (important life-saving note-to-self: run & hide from the dreaded ex... Wear a moustache)

- INTENSE STUDYING FROM THIS THURS EVENING TILL NEXT WED EVENING

- Bitchin' (beach) it out with Niz next Fri

Good mood today.

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They Say "Let... Us... Be Heard."

I'm not motivated enough.

Fuck exams.

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An Epidemic; The Crisis of Our Time

You, the pretender, and I, the pretender, are together - supposedly in like. But is this suppressed affection between two pretenders pretentious too?
We're a dead end.
I can hear the scorching sun's hums of heat blister through the drums of my ears, and the smell of dry, thirsty weeds at the end of the no through road.

One of the many little lessons life has to offer us: a lot of people don't really give two shits about how your day went unless it's got juice. Ouch, isn't it?
Happiness takes quadriple the effort to satisfy; it takes disappointment the snap of two fingers to contaminate every nerve and vein in your body.

I don't need it.
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400th Post

I... Don't feel like sticking around for very long.
Goodnight, I say, only until the sun decides to shine for me.

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Tartar Matyr

I pace myself around the room, walking aimlessly. My heart flutters as I click to read the received text message only to be disappointed by those blunt, uncaring words you know all too well to say to me. "Cbf and shit." I didn't realise how three words and a full stop could shatter a tower of hopes. Not again, I think to myself.

It's been 19 long days since I've seen you, and it's going to be another 23 more days until I see you again.
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The Church Of What's Happening Now

I close my eyes and slowly drift away from consciousness as he begins to trace delicate circles on my shoulder. Airily he whispers "Beautiful... Beautiful..." over and over while his lips caress my forehead; his warm breath evaporated into sweet drops against my forehead. He assumes I'm asleep and away in my own world until I sigh and begin to speak with my eyes closed as I falter away from his touch to turn my body away from his, "Quit lying."

Just little snapshots I write before I go to bed.
I played the PVA-glue-our-hands-together game with my brother.
He also taught me how to straighten my hair... Which is a bit odd.

I need to hear from you at least once
Just to know you're still alive.
I hate the week-long silences;
I need closure.
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Sweet Potato

He brushes thoroughly
He know she likes fresh breath
He rushes to the station
He waits atop the steps
He's brought with him a mars bar
She will not buy nestle
And later he'll perform
A love-lorn serenade, a trade
How can she become the psychic that she longs to be to understand you?

Sweet Potato by Sia

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I Walk The Streets To Stop My Weeping But He'll Never Change His Ways

On my bed I lay for hours crouched into foetal position. My hands fisted at my chest; any sudden movement would make me rip my own heart out. Away from my body, I lift my head up - singing to the ceiling, and through to the night sky. I sing in tune with sadness and sorrow; the rivers of despair trailing down my soft, flushed cheeks.

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Life, My Child, Happens

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