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Happy In The Club With A Bottle Of Red Wine

I watched Lady Gaga live last night with two of my favourite girls.

Love, love, loved it. Will get around to posting pictures soon!

Being sick really does suck the life right out of you.

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Parlez-vous Francais?

Do it now because you can and I think you should!

I look like a black fiend.

Sorry about delayed posts, I've been quite lazy and busy lately.

And all apologies, I've been trying to hide my breaking heart.

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L'Oreal Melbourne Fashion Festival

Style Celebration at Federation Square sponsored by Spotlight.

One of the best days EVER.

Also standing next to me is my snazzy best-friend.

The heart won't release...

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Nails Rip Through The Hosiery

Check out my all-time crush, Alice Glass

I fall in love everytime

L'Oreal Melbourne Fashion Festival tomorrow with the male best-friend. Oh we're snazzing up and we're whipping up class... All after I finish that darned literature SAC of mine.

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Parlez-vous français?

MEET MY MOTHER.

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J'EN PERDS LA RAISON DANS LA MER DU JAPON

Life just loves to suck off fat dicks.

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YUKI

Funniest face I've made all day.

I'm in a good and productive mood, I'm catching up on 2 weeks' worth of theory and homework!

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[ 海岸通り ] ､(｡_ ｡ `),

夕陽で朱に染まる､ 寄せては返す記憶｡ 今日という束の間の永遠だけ此処に刻む｡ 丘から見下るせば､ 青い海,春が霞む｡ 桜の並木では花びらと君が笑う｡ あれがない､ これもない､ どんな希望も叶えたい欲張り｡ そんな僕らの足りないものだけそっと包むように夕凪の最後には優しく揺らぐ風｡ 海岸通りに春が舞う｡
すれ違うことも

はみ出すことも恐れていないよ

どこにいてもただ願っている｡｡｡

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Sure Thing

YOU COULD BET THAT
NEVER GOTTA SWEAT THAT

This song is real chill.
You could hump and smoke weed to this song at the same time!

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CONTRAST

IN MY HOBO HUT.

HUT HOBO IN MY.

HOBO IN MY HUT.

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Bell And Bulger

Furniture shopping! What a lovely way to start off a Sunday afternoon. I'm heading off to IKEA Richmond (Richmung teehee) in a few minutes. And while waiting, I'm reading up on the James Bulger and Mary Bell cases.

Miniature manslaughter tyrants, lovely.

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Sixes & Sevens

Every step we take goes backwards,
Don't know what we're headed for.
I've been hung out to dry,
Strung out on denial.

I've been away in hospital, so that should explain the lack of blog entries made in the past couple of weeks.

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Killer Heels

Had my doc's appointment in the morn and then I decided to head out to the city via public transport. Shopping was good and I got Julia to shave off the left side of my hair. It was pretty much a day-out by myself, I even watched Valentine's Day on my own. (shhh, don't tell Nathan). I also saw my recent ex-boyfriend's girlfriend. She didn't recognise me, but uh, I didn't feel too great about it. I got over it quickly though.

Here are some snaps of the new-ish 'do.

The damn sleeping pill is starting to take effect.
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Only By Appointment

You're not concerned about my well-being,
you're just doing your job.

Blood Is Thicker Than Water

It's ironic how people tell you, "I'm here if you ever need me."

I asked for the truth, not a damn joke.
IRONIC

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I've Got Time

I'm opening myself up to love

but it keeps rejecting me, telling me to wait.

But I can't.

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As the side of my head leant closer to your chest, I traced the contours of your torso with my head - therefore positioning it on the centre of your chest. Your heart beats one, and skips another; I listen intently.

"What are you doing?" you ask,

"Shhh, I need quiet." I reply.

A few moments pass and that same confused expression remains pasted on your face, and as I began to speak placidly,

"You heart played my favourite song."

Corny, no?

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Craziest weekend of my life.
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The Anniversary May Never Be The Same

So sleep alone tonight with no one here just by your side.

How does she feel, how does she kiss,

How does she taste while she's on your lips?

I can't forget you I know you want me to want you, I want to.

But I can't forgive you, so when this is over don't blow your composure baby.

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I'm finally getting my life back on track.

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Mer Du Japon

J'EN PERDS LA RAISON

DANS LA MER DU JAPON

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Re: Stacks

Quite a few things to blog about today, so first thing's first:

I fell in love with this Kasabian album cover.

It's cute! and haunting at the same time :3

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Secondly, I want this cat!

I've decided what I want for my birthday this year...

A cat! A cat I shall name 'Chlamydia'.

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Thirdly, my best-friend says I look like a pauper boy.

One that you'd see in a movie like Oliver Twist.

I miss my best-friend, that bastard.

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And fourthly (no image),

I've finally submitted my essay after 2 months!

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That is all :)

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Kill The Director

How lovely,

I'm alone while you frolick in some other woman's cave.

Deny,

deny,

deny.

Regrowth,
ugh.
Sleep deprivation,
ugh.

Happy 19th birthday male best-friend.

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Not An Addict

Breathe it in and breathe it out

and pass it on, it's almost out.

We're so creative, so much more,

we're high above but on the floor.

The deeper you stick it in your vein,

the deeper the thoughts, there's no more pain.

I'm in heaven, I'm a god,

I'm everywhere, I feel so hot.

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And I'll tell myself, "I don't love him, I don't love him..." mutiple times, over and over until I eventually do fall out of love with you.
What can I do? You're not coming back.

Valentine's Day blows.

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I Fly Like Paper, Get High Like Planes

This afternoon I walked the streets of busy Melbourne

and as a woman dressed in black staggered along the side walk,

her inevitable stench overcame my senses and I thought to myself,

"She's as high as a fucking kite!"

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Bitches Are Like Stitches

Wow the thunderstorm was crazy today.
Do you know how you watch those sappy romance movies with rain scenes and you sceptically critique their use of artificial rain and think to yourself, "It never normally rains that hard in real life." Well I have been proven wrong today. It rained so hard to a point that I walked through a baby pool inside McDonalds. Crazy isn't it!

Well there's been an announcement and there's no school tomorrow :)
I think it's the only good thing that has happened at my school this year.
And work got cancelled as well, IT SHOULD DEFINITELY RAIN MORE OFTEN! So I spent the afternoon reading 'The Death of Socrates' until I fell asleep. I was then awoken at 8 for dinner and spent the rest of my night watching HIMYM, Thank God You're Here, and Family Guy, wooo! Then I hopped on MSN and chatted the rest of the night away with my guy best-friend.

Tonight's a especially great night to listen to the Beatles

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An Angry Blog

FUCK WHAT I SAID, IT DON'T MEAN SHIT NOW. FUCK THE PRESENTS, MIGHT AS WELL THROW THEM OUT. FUCK ALL THOSE KISSES, THEY DIDN'T MEAN JACK.

FUCK YOU, YOU HOE,

I DON'T WANT YOU BACK.

All apologies, I just had to get that out of my system.
And this is why I hate relationships.
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My Last Serenade

This is my last serenade,

I feel you as you fall away.

This is my last serenade,

From yourself, you can't run away.

It's your choice, point the finger

but it's on your head.

Your destination is a choice within yourself;

will you rise or become a slave?

My Last Serenade - Killswitch Engage

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7 straight hours of nothing but pure, intense specialist work.
I hate my school, I didn't work my ass off my whole life just to have a shitfuck year 12. I wouldn't mind if I rocked up to school tomorrow to find that the place has burned to ashes. All these new school policies have been implemented too. I got so much shit for things like accidentally walking up a flight of stairs where students are prohibited. Firstly, there was no sign stating that there were to be no students allowed; secondly, I've always used that flight of stairs; and thirdly, I just saw that kid run up there.
Policy #4: a right to a voice.
Yeah right. More like, "we'll add this rule here so we can fuck with your heads."
I'm mighty depressed as hell.

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Gravity

You loved me 'cause I'm fragile, when I thought that I was strong.

But you touch me for a little while and all my fragile strength is gone.

I live here on my knees as I try to make you see

that you're everything I think I need here on the ground.

But you're neither friend nor foe though I can't seem to let you go.

The one thing that I still know is that you're keeping me down.

Gravity - Sara Bareilles

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The girls have began booking for Schoolies,
I'm so damn excited. Too bad I'm paying for my own share of the accomodation, but it's good in a way 'cause I get to say that I've paid for my own holiday.
I've also booked myself in for study/methods/specialist lectures in the city on the 21st and 27th. And following the lecture on the 27th, I've got Alex's 18th at Williamstown and Ray & Mary's 18th at St Kilda. I'm pretty hyped for that weekend.

And this weekend as well! Applying for a Medicare card this Saturday, followed by a nice dinner with a few mates. And the Coca-Cola St Kilda Festival this Sunday with the best-friend and her boyfriend for Valentine's day. (L)

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Life

I hate needing

and wanting.

Curiousity killed the cat.

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I'm On That 88 Shit

Boo!

Pretty chill day today.

I visited my specialist,

went to the bank,

received another lovely book in the mail;

Chekhov's Lady With A Little Dog & Other Stories,

had a mad karaoke sesh with the little brother,

and spent the last few hours of my night drinking sweet tea out of my fave the Beatles mug.

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Ágætis byrjun

"An Alright Start"

Awesome night-time song to chill to.
No significance, it's just got a lovely rhythm and beat.

Life is good at the moment :)

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Takk...

"Thanks..."

I guess I'm fine...

Until I'm reminded of you,

you f%cking pussywhipped two-timing manslut

and your 12 year old trailer-trash bitch.

Keep your shameful "I was afraid of getting hurt 'cause I fell in love with you" bullshit in the back of your throat where it belongs. I don't need you to spit that shit out at me.

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Í Gær

"Yesterday"

I sent you to Vegas
With a pocket full of paper,
and with no ultimatums on you.
I thought what could separate us?
But it just seemed that Vegas
only brought the player outta you
Hey baby, what's yo' name?

Song of the night:

Why Should I Be Sad? - Britney Spears

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Inní mér syngur vitleysingur

"Within Me A Lunatic Sings"

Deciding to grow the right side of my hair? :)

I've finally finished a WHOLE chapter of methods in just 2 hours! Pretty satisfying achievement I must say :)

I've compiled a list of things (half-practical things) I'd like to by myself within the year:

- and XBox 360

- an orange cat

- a hammock

- a DSi or PSP Go...

I might just finish this off tomorrow. I'm getting told off for staying up too late. ):

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Með blóðnasir

"I Have A Nosebleed"

Interesting song name... And I have no eyebrows. ):

I'm currently taking a break to escape the swamp of homework that has managed to frighteningly pile up on my desk. I think leaving holiday homework to the last minute is the worst idea and decision I've made this year... Apart from a few others.
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This is my desk. And this is only my methods work on my table ): You should see the specialist and history pile );

But my day wasn't all bad, I got some books in the mail which I'm very pleased about! I love receiving things in the mail. There's one book in particular in which I'm very fond of; Gwen Harwood Collected Poems. (L)

I guess I'd better get back to it ):

Song of the day:

Nantes - Beirut

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Svo hljótt

"So Quietly"

From now on, I've decided to use Sigur Rós' song names to title my blog entries.

I'm beginning to notice the importance of this year's education.

It's my final high school year, and there's a mere 30 weeks left of this.

25 Mondays,

29 Tuesdays

30 Wednesdays

29 Thursdays and

29 Fridays left of school.

Yep, I've even taken out the public holidays and I've counted every day there is left for me to endure in my senior year. I'm that eager to get school over and done with.

I've minimised Facebooking, which I honestly thought I'd struggle with. But it looks like I'm doing fine without it.

Time for me to sleep. Or eat. Whichever one. :)

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Miaow

For my birthday this year, I want a cat.

Not just any ordinary cat, an orange cat.
One that looks exactly just like Garfield,
and I'm gonna name it Chlamydia because I can.

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Viorar Vel Til Loftarasa

If you are homophobic, I strongly recommend that you refrain from watching.

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I Don't Love You

At the end of the world or the last thing I see

You are never coming home, never coming home

Could I? Should I?

And all the things that you never ever told me

And all the smiles that are ever gonna haunt me

Never coming home, never coming home

Could I? Should I?

And all the wounds that are ever gonna scar me

For all the ghosts that are never gonna catch me...

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Blood Bank

My current workspace: my dining table.
I am seriously digging Bon Iver's music right now,
and the rock/alternative music I was into back in 2007/2008.
I think I've got the rest of my life planned out:
- Complete year 12 (and get a good ENTER SCORE) while trying to apply for a new part-time job.
- Get my alcohol license when I turn 18 and apply as a bartender at a family restaurant before moving to hotel lounges and bars, etc. Then PASS MY P'S AND BUY A CAR.
- If the above plan doesn't succeed, apply as a sales assistant at some retail clothing store instead. Then PASS MY P'S AND BUY A CAR.
- Bachelor of Architectural Design at RMIT or Monash
- If the above plan fails, Bachelor of Education and Bachelor of Science (Applied Sciences) double degree at RMIT
- After finishing the first degree, move out of home into an apartment shared with Yen and move onto Bachelor of Design (Fashion)
- Then follow onto a career involving men's fashion design
- No getting married 'cause marriage is the biggest ball-breaker
- Grow old with an iguana named Kumar and a black cat named Coco

I'm pretty sure my life won't follow that path exactly, but it's a good outline of what I want to do with my life :)

Tomorrow (well later today) I'm off to drive around the city to buy my textbooks for this year, and then I'll be heading home to get cracking on my homework. It'll be three busy days of non-stop cramming. I hate that. But there was nothing I could do about it; both my 'rents were overseas - with mum aiding my grandma during her operation, and dad just lives elsewhere - and I didn't have the dosh to buy the materials I needed for my final highschool year. How sad.

There was a cricket in my kitchen today and I panicked. I didn't want to kill it, let alone squash it with my hand and hear its exoskeletal body crunch between my fingers. It came closer towards me and I panicked some more so I dropped an unopened tissue box on it.
R.I.P. cricket.

I wish you'd talk to me.
Is it really that weird for you?

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She Wants To Know

Hola chiquita,
Boys will do anything and say everything to get those grubby hands into girls' panties. Once they're done with you, they'll be gone before the sun decides to rise. Exchanging body heat in the passenger seat.

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Just Another

I'd tell you his name, but I'm afraid that you might fall in love with him too.

I guess it was better that we said nothing at all.
Well, nothing important at least.
No questions were asked, no romatic words exchanged.
Returning to the feeling, yet, not quite exactly.
Tonight was nice, until you left the room.

I was probably just another.

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GHOST

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Bon Hiver, Good Winter

Flume - Bon Iver, current favourite band

Laid-back day home
Cooked peri-peri chicken breast fillet steaks and lemon-battered barramundi for dinner
Consumed at least 7 pots of English tea today
Wanting to buy Bon Iver's album, 'For Emma, Forever Again'
Writing up a new resumè and thinking of applying as a retail sales assistant at Globalize, Edge, Sportsgirl, Dotti or Factorie. (I'm focusing more on the last two stores 'cause I'm sure Globalize, Edge and Sportsgirl require more experience in retail)
Searching up second-hand cars that I'd be willing to save up for
Lovely night in, away from the rest of the world and it's troubles

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Fuck It - Eamon

See I don't know why I liked you so much,

I gave you all of my trust.

I told you, I loved you, now that's all down the drain.

Ya put me through pain, I wanna let you know that I feel...

Fuck what I said, it don't mean shit now,

Fuck the presents, might as well throw 'em out.

Fuck all those kisses, they didn't mean jack,

Fuck you, you hoe, I don't want you back.

You thought you could keep this shit from me, yeah

Ya burnt bitch, I heard the story.

Ya played me, ya even gave her head,

Now ya askin' for me back, ya just another act,

Look elsewhere 'cause you're done with me.

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Take My Hand

"Good evening, will that be a table for two for tonight?"

"No... Just a table for one."

I see the couples are walkin' by, feel like I don't wanna be alone today. So glad no one can see what I hide deep inside - how it feels to be the girl who never gets the right guy, tell me why? When there's so much I've got to give. I wake up reaching out in the night, ready to hold him tight, 'till I realise that nobody is there.

I miss my parents.

I miss being so oblivious to this whole relationshit thing.

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I'm Not Missing You

I will spin on my wheelie-chair with my head and hair thrown aback, careless about the surrounding obstacles that would potentially crack my head open and spill my secrets out.

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I Have Smelly Socks

Truth;

what does it even mean?

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Fuck Romance

Forget his name and face,
forget his kiss and warm embrace.
Forget the things he used to say,
remember now he's gone away.
Forget the times that went so fast,
forget his love which now has past.
Forget the things he used to do,
remember now he loves her too.
Forget the love that you once shared,
forget the fact that he once cared.
Forget the way he said your name,
remember now things are not the same.
Forget the talks that you once had,
forget the thought; it makes you sad.
Forget that you said you would wait,
remember now his love is hate.
Forget him when they play your song,
forget you cried the whole night long.
Forget he said he'll leave you never,
remember now he's gone forever.

Just as I was just about to give you my heart,
I find out that you fucked me over.
You made me think it was all my fault,
and yes it was. It's my fault I fell for cheap sweet-talk.

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I Hate Love

I've made my mistakes, and I've screwed up.

I always thought that you'd be the one to screw up but it turns out to be the other way around. You're not the wreckless player I thought you were, and I'm so in love with you.

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