I Could Never Get Away, You Could Never Run Away

My Turn - Basement Jaxx

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Free

Ever since you told me I'mma tell you how it's been
Don't talk to nobody not even my friends
I can't sleep
And I don't even clean
I ain't had a good meal
This is how you make me feel when you're not here

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Thugz Mansion

A place to spend my quiet nights, time to unwind
So much pressure in this life of mine, I cry at times
I once contemplated suicide, and woulda tried
But when I held that knife, all I could see was my momma's eyes
No one knows my struggle, they only see the trouble
Not knowin' it's hard to carry on when no one loves you

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Is Everyone Here Make-Believe?

Does this deafening silence mean nothing to no-one but me?

Pulling off an all-nighter cos I can't sleep from the pain...
But I'm still smiling aren't I?

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Hooked

Outgrowing my fringe and my short bob.

I'm so down for the whole dramatic appearance change right now. It's a little weird though cos an outgrown bob looks like a really freaky mullet so in the meanwhile, I've decided to stick to the bobby-pin-and-hairspray method of holding my hair back until it grows properly cos I still can't tie my hair without having tiny bits of hair sticking out. (n)

I'm sick of the whole sensitive and self-conscious thing with relationships, so I'm just gonna stop thinking about it by doing housework. Suck it up, G.

And speaking of which, my mum left to go to Phils. tonight to visit my ill grandma. I wasn't really given much option on whether I could go or not because I'm stuck with taking care of the house, younger brother, and paying of domestic bills. But don't tell my mum this but... I really miss her for once. And I have nobody to cry to if I get those rape-nightmares. *shudders*

It's hella lonely tonight.

Like, really lonely.

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Can't Get You Outta My System

I can't
stay away from you for this long. I have to see you :(

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Entwine

I lay flat on the tiles of my bathroom as the cool of the tiles absorb the heat of my palms and soles. I dream about the floor consuming me whole and fall away into unconsciousness. "I would really like that" I say to the visible entities surrounding me, but it doesn't happen. Instead, the weight of my pain and regrets depress my chest against the floor, causing me to curl up into foetal position. I cry out your name, but you'll never hear me.

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