This Is Going To Bring Me Clarity, This'll Take The Heart Right Out Of Me

Dear male-who-crushed-my-heart,
Don't tell me that you want to be good friends with me, that's just teasing me.
Because of you I can't return love.
Because of you I am burned, willing to spend the rest of my life alone.
Because of you I am cowering away from the concept of love and happiness.
I am immature, I am stubborn.
I am stupid for blaming you for my premature love-exertion.
I wanted you, all of you. Now we know what the result of selfishness is:
I don't anyone at all.

Dear male-whose-heart-I-crushed,
We ended it at 20 days. 20 days of growing in love, though not in love.
Everything I felt was real, despite not returning the strong affection you shared for me. Sorry is the only way I can express my sincerest apologies.
I hurt you everyday, but you never want to leave me.
Despite your worst efforts, you do your best to understand me though I hardly try to understand you. I am cruel and the worst person to fall for.
That day at the beach will be a day I won't forget. The piggyback rides on the sweetest brinks of the ocean, to the rocky walls we climbed up hand-in-hand.
I can't be your best friend, and I won't be your friend.
Three years of love. Three years of life-changing experiences.
Learn to understand, you need better.
A friend is as far as I'll go.