Bass-Clap, Bass... Bass-Clap

I am absent-minded.

It don't matter 'cos I have no sex life
And all I want to do now is inject my ex-wife

OHAI!
I don't really know what to say.
"Frustrated fireworks inside my head"
My brother just bought The Bake Sale album by The Cool Kids.
Dad: "What kind of music is that?"
Ginx: "Um... Black people music."

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It's Christmas time, and the needles on the tree
A skinny Santa is bringing something to me

His voice is overwhelming, but his speech is slurred

And I only understand every other word

Poetry and lyrics at its finest.
Elliott Smith, if only you didn't stab yourself to death.
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Every night I'd pray that you'd try harder.

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POETRY

I am impulsive.

I try to feel confident, I'm bitter - You're not making sense.

I missed you 'til you almost took my sanity, I started a new verse like poetry; you're hiding behind the words you speak, changing the words of the story.

Poetry by Danity Kane

Shrink at 12:30
Bad news. Bad, bad news
Caesar salad (w/out the chicken) for lunch, yum yum
Episode in the shower
Work till 7
Movie rentals, ooh la la
17 Again, Fired Up and The Boy In Striped Pyjamas
ALL VERY GOOD MOVIES
Therefore I noticed that I didn't want to sleep in either movie...
...However while watching TBISP, I had this really huge, impulsive urge to wash my hair and cut my fringe
Like it was so bad, I kept twitching
S-s-strrrrrange much?
So after the movie, I showered and cut my fringe (as above)
So much for growing it out!
It looks fine I guess.

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I'm feeling much better than I did this morning.
The more I decide to leave, the more I want to stay.
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I can't believe it took me this long to realize that... ZAC EFRON IS A FKN HOT PIECE OF ASS. Yum yum
...And is it just me or is guy-on-guy action a major turn-on?

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Happiness

Happiness is a firecracker sitting on my headboard

Happiness was never mine to hold

Careful child, light the fuse and get away

‘Cause happiness throws a shower of sparks

Happiness damn near destroys you

Breaks your faith to pieces on the floor

So you tell yourself, that’s probably enough for now

Happiness has a violent roar

Where do I begin?
Contemplating the end of life,
I wish to return this Gift of Life back to God.
Would that be rude?
I am absent; my mind and body working against each other
I'm stuck between the crossroad of what I want to do and what I should do
I am unhappy
I am unappreciated
Destiny Vs. Predestination
I am still alone, no matter how many people surround me
I dream of closing my eyes to fall back towards the raging ocean
I fall, my body thrown and thrashed angrily back and forth in these waves which drown me
Who said you can never dream of falling?
My mind is open, but what can you really understand?

This is our ungodly hour
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He doesn't even smile anymore
And I can't see anything positive.

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Drop It Like It's Hot

I am tripping.

Spare me the freakin' dirrrrrty looks now, don't blame me

How was shopping GV? Twas SHIT.
2-3 hours of shopping and all I got was a chai latte and a $20 iTunes card.
I can finally download The Flaws' album, Achieving Vagueness
I really want to shop for lamp shades
I have a crapshoot lamp shade from IKEA and a broken lava lamp
Cry cry cry me a river
I tried all these clothes in all these stores
I've never felt so ugly in my entire life
I wish I was taller
Oh complain complain complain
I refrained from buying useless things... But I really liked that shirt.
Twas hard looking for good lamp shades on Google images
The X-ray and Jewish propaganda shades seemed to be my only faves


I might just end up making my own lamp shade with David Bowie's face on it. Sadface
Mum complained about my excessive use of eyeliner
"Fire out! You use eyeliner like you use toilet paper!"
WOMAN? FIRE OUT? WHUT? HAHAHAHAHAAH
More like she meant "far out"
I'm getting a car!??!?!?!?!!?!?!?
What? Black Mini Cooper? What?
Mum spoiled my birthday surprise
Note to self: Save up for a pair of Ksubi's, a silver/black 16GB iPod nanorrrrr, and my little brother's birthday present.

I should attempt my homework.
Or not

http://www.ksubi.com/ love this blog

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Get Up From Down There

I am apathetic.

I honestly don't want to put up with your sack o' shit, pinning your blame on your problems which you can fix but refuse to. I didn't sign up for this in the beginning; if you refuse to fix yourself up, you can forget about everything else.

SAME SHIT, DIFFERENT DAY

Eating doesn't feel like eating
Am I delusional?
Drinking soy milk every 30 minutes = true satisfaction
Gummi bears have gone stiff, depressedface
Getting chicken sausage cravings. Bad vegetarian, bad
Don't really feel like composing proper sentences today
Laughing at my boyfriend's misfortunes, sorry. I was eating cookies and remembered something funny in my head - legitimate excuse
I want these boots (Baxter and Maisie (yes even shoes have names), by Wittner) but they're a pricey $169.95 and $199 though, sadface

Net connection is lagging hardcore, not happy Jan
Big, big urge to shower right now, ugh I feel sticky and dirty
I want to go shopping, but what will I buy?
There's an idea, I'll go out right now
I'll watch Edward Scissorhands until I fall asleep
It's winter all of a sudden, raging whore
Nope, not a big fan. No, not I
Spring where are you hiding?

Whoever decided to do a raindance, I'm going to punch you square in the face and knock you out cold

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I Just Called To Say I...

I am distraught.

I don't feel much like talking tonight.
But thanks for the wonderful day best-friend; inverted umbrellas.
I'm too sad to give a shit.

The Blower's Daughter - Damien Rice
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Fighting A War Inside My Mind

I don't really know who to choose.
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Joy Ride

I am contemplative.

I found conjoined quadruplets while fondling with my big box of gummi bears.

I had work today, and got hyped about the grand final in the morning. Even though the best team ever, Collingwood, wasn't playing I excused myself from work early just to watch the game. I missed the kick-off at 2:30 'cause mum wanted to see our neighbour get out of the limo in the pouring rain. So anyway, I watched the game until it reached a tie of 31-all and subconsciously fell asleep. Next thing I know, I'm waking up to "Four foh you Glen Coco. You go Glen Coco" on the projector. How on earth did I get here?

I slept through the rest of the movie and woke up at 7 to Facebook and MSN. Dad, Gian and I ate dinner at a sushi bar somewhere. Twas good, twas good. I am now binging to Haribo Goldbears gummi bears and no one can stop me.
Time for me to sk'daddle. Busy day tomorrow; San Lorenzo dance performance, hang out with Michael (city), and meet up with Den and Karnhy in St Albans to get down to bizznizzzzzzz.

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Hello there, we should stop hanging out because you're lovely
And I don't want anymore mistakes.
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You oughta see this,
Honestly my current fave.

Joy Ride - The Killers
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Funny People

I am placid.

Aw poor thing.

Went out with the dickhead today:
+ The second-carriage stalker (Let) + "YOU SAID BE THERE AT 11, NOT WAKE UP AT 11" + Rain, fail. + 42 minute wait + JC's Supra. + "Just open your legs!" AWWWWWKWARD. + MC + Walk around, no idea what to do + "Did you just say Fillet-O'-Fish?" + Maccas + QV + Stretching in front of Hugo Boss, "Why'd you lash me you prick?" + Gloria Jean's; "Hi, can I have a small-large chai latte?" "Small-large whut?" + TAP TAP WAR + Did not give into ciggies + Ed Hardy fail + "The bartender was greasing me off. I bet if you were the one who asked for the coins, she would've given ya a gobby as well" + Pool + Rock, paper, scissors + No white ball, and black ball first in fail. + I WIN. + Funny People movie + "You fuckin' hate everyone!" + Chlymidia and severe gonorrhea + Starburst babies, crispy M&Ms and reg. coke + Director's Suite, I dare you + LMFAO SITTING DOWN FAIL/"THIS LOOKS LIKE A GOOD CORNER" + Throwing M&Ms at passerbys + That fucking disgusting thing you do with shoving M&Ms up your nose + "So... When are we getting married?" "When you grow a dick." + HEADBUTT + Pussy bitch couldn't go toilet by himself + Falling asleep in the movie + Movie texting + A lot of punching involved + 15 M&Ms in my mouth + His fail eating + "That's my straw..." "GOOD." + Hoodies and fail Niz-hair + Went home + Awkward wave + CREEPY MAN TAKING PHOTOS OF ME ON THE TRAIN ):

And practice from 7 'till whenever. Honestly died. ):
I look different here. I tried to copy his fail haircut

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Ecstasy

I am chill.

"Manny the Minotaur"

I told MJ that this was my photo of the day.

I honestly cried laughing to this photo.

Today was pretty average; had work, ate out, watched The Pianist and that was all. Yesterday I watched When Harry Met Sally, and the day before yesterday I watched I'm Not There - a fantastic Bob Dylan-inspired movie.

I'm Not There

Tomorrow I may possibly be going to the Melb. Show with Niz. If the weather seems fail, we'll find something better to do. Damnit, we meet up at 11am. That's really early ): Dance practice is also on at 6.

Things to do before next Monday:
+ Pick up Den and Karnhy's money and dosh + SELL REVIVE TICKETS + Michael (sus much?) + re-dye hair + buy black Puma kicks at Harbourtown + San Lorenzo performance + pay fees

I've come to the point where I don't remember a single thing we used to do.
I've come to the point where I can stare at a photo of you and recall nothing.
I've come to the point where I fail to believe that you were the first person I... Yeah.
I've come to the point where I can honestly admit that I no longer know you.
Time for some shut-eye. Love.

I guess he turns my smirks into gay smiles.
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You're Just Too Good To Be True~

I am nostalgic.

Can't take my eyes off of ya.

Woke up with a good dream, for the first time in so long. :)
He said, "This place is extraordinary, isn't it?"
And you said, "Yeah, but nothing's as extraordinary as my girlfriend."
I'd overheard your conversation with the circus dwarf whilst running down the steep slope of the crazy nightclub tunnels with the crazy pink carpet, and I ran into the wall with the biggest smile on my face.

Had the doctor's appointment with Dr. Suma at 10:30am.
Dance practice at 12pm straight after at Tyrone's; we learnt Justin, Libang's and Trev's choreys. Hot!
Drove to Watergangsters with my two girls for Gloria Jean's.
Drove the girls home and went straight to my second doctor's appointment with my specialist at 6pm.
After the one hour session, I drove straight to the work dinner in St Albans at 7:30pm. Twas heaps of fun, we should do it more often :)

What do tigers dream of when they take their little tiger snooze?
Do they dream of mauling zebras, or Halle Berry in her Catwoman suit?
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You There

Is all I can think about at 4:28am.
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500 Days Of Summer

I am considerating.

Eet by Regina Spektor

Despite feeling low, I'm feeling my highest right now. Not in that sense where I'm high on drugs or hyper, I'm feeling above what I normally feel... If you're catching my drift. I went out with my girl today, first to Harbourtown and we then made our way to MC to watch 500 Days Of Summer. We were meant to go to Lee's birthday, but we were lucky enough to run into him to greet him a happy birthday and to express our regrets for not being able to attend. But anyway, the movie was good with a shocking "WTF BULLSHIT" ending. :)

The best-friend and I then made our way home, having a great chat on the train home. I miss him tonight.
I don't really know what's going on with anything anymore.

"Robin's not the girl of my dreams. The girl of my dreams would have bigger boobs, like sports more, be a little hotter. But Robin's better than the girl of my dreams: she's real."

I'll be shouting profanities at the sky tonight.
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The Series Of Unfortunate Events

I am FUCKING FRIED.

Happy 18th to Kevzzzzzzzz yeeeeeeeew.

And for today (21st), happay birthdizzle to Eroldejitoez, Lee Tinglez, Vess, Katrina, Jess and Lou-ayyyyy.

I got fried, 'nuff said bitch.

Key moments?:

- Getting fried - Failed circle dnm - Erold's game - Treston and Rainer's lap dance - Chantel (L) - Let the hot bitch - "VEGETARIAN" - Hairy armpits - Freestyling was hawwwwwwt - Punching the shit outta JD - Jammage - Bruno - Toilets with the best-ffffffrienddddddd - The clicking-imaginary-something-you-throw-around-vagina-echo-FAIL game thing - FOOTSCRAY - Cake?

Don't really give two shits anymore about cha! Fucking insensitive rock motherfucker yeeeeeeee boiiiiii fucka cock!

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If We Could Party All Night, And Sleep All Day...

I am exhilarated.

That's me without any make-up on.

How feral.

Just came back from the St. Al's debutante ball. It went off. The ladies looked beautiful. Dancing was crazy. The DJ was actually really good, compared to the 'band' at my deb. I am proud to coin the term 'The Dakota' dance move after that little girl's signature dance move. I have party feet :( and I'm finding that I miss him more than ever tonight.

After work, I got my henna done on my hand at an Indian store in Cairnlea. The ladies have done a beautiful job, I oughta post it up soon I guess.

Roller-skating with the best-friend and her boyfriend tomorrow, and then PK's 18th. My eyes are burning and watering, yearning for some shut-eye. G'night folks.
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The Glass Half Empty

I am anguished.

Today was a long day.

IT test in the morning.

Ad. gen. maths. Relief

Arrived back to Town Centre campus.

Locked self in toilet.

Taken to the nearest GP.

God bless Ms Desira.

Drove home, chocolate eclairs.

Chat.

Lou's Mi Goreng.

Sister Pang.

Nursing home.

Harbourtown till late.

Safeway.

Home.

I don't know what to say, besides, it only gets worse.

"Take me home. I'd rather die than be with you, take me home"

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But I'm Already Somebody's Baby

Me and my belly full of razors,
Butchering me from the inside.

Just me and my deceased friend, Elliott Smith.
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I'm Not Crazy, I'm Just A Little Unwell

I am selective.

This is what Michael looks like when... Actually he never looks like this.

Wednesday
Didn't go to school that day 'cause I purportedly had an "x-ray" appointment, but my back-pain-of-burden turned out to be strained muscle caught between my joints. Yikes! And the doctor recommended acupuncture and swimming to relieve the muscles and whatever.
I then stayed home and wrote songs while playing on the guitar. I'm slowly self-learning. :) I chilled out at my girl's place later that night from 6-9:30ish pm. We talked about 'girl stuff', watched Mr & Mrs Smith while eating chocolate almonds, Grain Waves and other "healthy" crap. I miss hanging out with her, that crazy bitch.

Thursday
School today. We played trivia during history. I drank Fanta in the morning, bad idea. Weather was in the shits today, I felt like I was in a Twilight movie. I had spares after history and that felt like it went for ages. I feel like I'm giving a lot of people strong attitude nowadays, I really wish I didn't. If I'm not occupied with something, my mind drops knee-deep into shit. I've also been replacing people's phone wallpapers with my "face" (see above photo) and taking photos of their phones with my wallpaper. I've done it to 7 phones so far, and my goal is to reach 20 before I upload all of the photos.
After school was pretty strange. I was waiting under the locker bay shade until I caught sight of mum's car before I could run out, and Hung came walking towards me dripping wet. I hate it when he says and does those things to me. It's unnecessary to dwell on the past sometimes, Hung, and it's also unnecessary to dwell on a future that's never gonna happen.
Went to work, and managed Ritish before I left work early. I love teaching that boy, even though no one else wants to teach him. I left work early to attend Gian's subject selection information evening as a mentor and alternative guardian. I shouted my brother maccas after it was over and went home. We had dinner as a family for once and we were all trying to speak Tagalog, laughing till we cried and gasped for air.
"Oh Marge? No here, go there. You call tomorrow? You call yesterday?" Haha (L)
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I love Leanne the bitch to the bone.

Flightless Bird, American Mouth

"hahaha yeh yeh yeh... dork face... one of these days ur gona fall asleep when ima right next to u... n im jus gona punch you square in the face lol haha"
NIZ

Today was pretty average. I got kept in after school again for being late this morning - I swear I'm always there. I then made my way home and had a salad (woooo) before heading of to work. Work was pretty stressing today, my boss made me head of English (or English management) for the Cairnlea centre :) #1 centre in Australia bitch!

Finished at around 7-8 and drove on home, I swear I had the biggest cravings for Hungry Jacks and Subway. I actually watched television for the first time today, channel 7 I think? That RSPCA show came on, and that medical operations show, and then Packed To The Rafters. I've never seen PTTR but it was actually good - pretty funny.

I'm not attending school tomorrow 'cause I've got that x-ray going on... So it should be good :) I'm pretty chill at the moment, no stress... Apart from the stress that's on my back. :(
Love, Bonez.

The Great Escape by Patrick Watson

Current On-The-Go playlist:

- The Great Escape by Patrick Watson

- Flightless Bird, American Mouth by Iron & Wine

- Falling Slowly by Glen Hansard & Marketa Irglova

- Lay Lady Lay by Magnet & Gemma Hayes
- True Love Will Find You In The End by Richard Walters

BIG DAY OUT 2010

The Big Day Out rumours include:
Muse, Blink 182, Eminem, Lily Allen, The Offspring, Kasabian, Jet, The Mars Volta, Wolfmother, Tool, Oasis, Radiohead, R.E.M., Daft Punk, The Cure,
(Sources: http://www.soundwavefestival.com/forum/big-day-out-2010)

That is honestly pretty crazy for a line-up rumour. I would be so stoked if these line-up rumours were to be true. The line-up would definitely be announced next month so... Watch out for that :)

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Soundwave has already announced their line-up for 2010:
Faith No More, My Chemical Romance, Jane's Addiction, AFI, Paramore, HIM, Alexisonfire, Taking Back Sunday, Trivium, Sunny Day Real Estate, Eagles of Death Metal, The Get Up Kids, Reel Big Fish, Meshuggah, All Time Low, A Day To Remember, It Dies Today, Escape The Fate, Clutch, Anti Flag, ISIS, Gallows, A Wilhelm Scream, The Weakerthans, Emarosa, Anvil, The Devil Wears Prada, Comeback Kid, The Almost, Dance Gavin Dance, Four Year Strong, You Me At Six, Whitechapel, The Aquabats, Rolo Tomassi, Baroness, RX Bandits, Maximum The Hormone. The Creepshow

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Ehhhh, I'd go to both if I have cash... But I'd rather go to BDO.
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"I've been busy so much lately that every time I get some time to spend I end up drunk or sleeping in" - Frank Turner

Self-Immolation, No Celebration

Self-immolation: often the term used to refer to suicide by fire. It can be best thought of as a way of sacrificing oneself in the name of ending suffering.

I'm currently finishing off the history research report that's due first thing tomorrow morning, but I'm blogging instead. I feel so slack, I want to leave it until morning but you and I both know that doing that wouldn't help anything.

Do you know what I really hate? A pet peeve of mine that I've recently discovered? I really hate it when essay questions ask: "What is the significance of this to this? Explain." I honestly hate the word 'significant' in that particular context. 'Cause despite knowing the definition of 'significant', I always find myself asking "Well, what on earth do you mean by significant?"

Ok, sooo... I've just left Blogger for a good 50 minutes and I was able to finish the rest of the research report! Relieffffff to the bone!

?? I didn't mean to lead you on, I honestly had no intention from the beginning. So if I ask you to leave me alone and expel your feelings, I really do mean it. I don't know how I got myself into this mess in the first place. ??

I had an excursion to Ecolinc today and I didn't even know it! Luckily I ran into my teacher though, or else I would've had to stay in supervised study with a teacher. Eck! Ecolinc was pretty good though, and productive must I say. I haven't worked this hard in chemistry since lasttttt yearrrrrr!

Hello asshole,

Here's my night-time heart-felt love letter to you:

Darling, oh darling, would you like to hear a funny joke?

I miss you right now.

Hooooo snap. Toodeloo motherfucker!

Now there's something you don't hear everyday.

Love, Bonez.

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The spinning top made a sound like a train across the valley, fading, oh so quiet but constant til it passed, over the ridge into the distances written on your ticket to remind you where to stop, and when to get off.

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I SWEAR ON THE LIFE OF ALGAE, I'M IN LOVE WITH KINGS OF CONVENIENCE. Especially the songs Gold In The Air Of Summer and The Build-Up. I could cry to these songs, laugh to these songs, relax to these songs and dance to these songs...

Reminderrrsss?
Tuesday: Work.
Wednesday: X-Ray
Thursday: Work
Friday: Doctor's appointment
Saturday: Work, then St. Al's deb
Sunday: Harboutown, then PK's 18th.
Monday: Lee's 17th

The Cool Cat

Meet Leo, the cool cat.

I'm M'in the MT.
I'm feeling quite chill at the moment, a great mood. Kings Of Convenience never fail to set the good mood! I've finally finished downloading Muse's The Resistance album, and I'll be honest with you, it was a disappointment to my expectations. It's good, but eh, not their best album. My favourite album of theirs would be Origin Of Symmetry. I'd love to hear from people who counter my opinion... Or support it. Either way :)

I actually slept at 4am this morning due to restlessness and I guess it affected my day. I started the day off with church and we headed off to Watergangster's for some La Porchetta's. After I picked up the Hurley singlet I put on lay-by. It's got a gigantic image of a roaring tiger, I love felines.

Mum and I went bag shopping afterwards and made our way home. They decided to detour a bit for a longer drive to see developing developments (er duh!) and with the lack of sleep from the previous night, I fell asleep in the car.

I fell asleep until we reached home 45mins later - I ran my little ass up upstairs and konked out on the bed with all my outing clothes still on. It felt so good until I was awoken by Niz's text message two hours later. FAIL.

I don't know if I should do my history research report tonight... It's due this Tuesday and I've only done 20% of it so far. I'm too damn chill to work!
Love, Bonez.

Album of the day:

Riot On An Empty Street by Kings Of Convenience

The Good Times Are Killin' Me!

I started the day off with work at 10:30 in the morning. Pretty funny, then started to make my way to Harbourtown... Docklandin' it up yo! This was around 3pm? Went shopping with the younger brother and ran into Niz and his friend whose name I never caught. Ate at ChilliPadi and ran into Brandon and his familia, and made my way home at 6:30pm. It's a shame I wasn't able to go to Emma's 17th though, it would've gone offfffff. But no worries, I dropped by my girl'sssssss place to drop off money and pick-up REVIVE flyers. I then went home and spent the rest of the night Facebooking and texting Niz and Thea. The missus is at an 18th party with a $1000 tab at the moment. If he even decides to think about picking up any boys, he can forget about seeing daylight!

Anddddddddddd REVIVE DETAILS!:
Support Ellusive DC, the Collektive and many more sexy crews @ REVIVE '09; Hip-Hop Dance & Singing Charity event @ the Melb. Music Academy (MMA) on Oct 10th (Sat), 3pm-6pm. Tix: $15prepaid and $18@door. MSG/CMNT/WHATEVER FOR MORE INFO.

Stuff to save up for:
- The HOLIDAYS
- Melb. Showgrounds
- Parklife ticket (?)
- Metric concert! (uncertain)
- Paolo Nutini concert! (uncertain)
- Ladyhawke concert! (uncertain)
- BRITNEY SPEARS' CONCERT! (Yeah shoosh, childhood idol. I'll always love her)
- Christmas
- Big Day Out ticket

Love, Bonez.

Album of the night:

Resistance by MUSE

(It's a shame I don't have dosh to buy the solid thing ):! I'll just have to put up with the illegalities until then)

Won't You Take Me To... Funkytown?

Y'day was a good day, a longgggg day.
Went to school and drove to Watergangster's to do some homework while waiting for the MT. He finally came at like 5:45? And he was waiting out the front of the station with Deyar. We went inside to get out of the violent wind and we talked like no tomorrow as we sat on the couchy seats of the food court. Haha he's my favourite dickhead, I'll give you that.

Time flew and it was suddenly 7pm and we started to make our way back to the station. Funnily enough, we bumped into this group of guys Michael had happened to know... As well as my other good tattoo-artist-ambitious mate. Small, small world I say.

So we made it to the station and crashed there until I got a phone call from mum. We waited near my primary school but the wind was as if hell broke loose! We made a bet that he'll miss his train, whereas he bets he won't. I win muthafucka. And then mum finally came.

I went home to get changed for practice, and I love Ellusive practices :) I just hate how crap I am.

Off to work I am, and the Harbourtown ;) Ciao ladies.
Love, Bonez.

Hello Gorgeous

HOLA!

The past few days were crazy, crazy like a crazy emotional rollercoaster. But I will assure you, I am feeling my best at the moment. :) I've just finished my persuasive writing piece for english and must I say, it is the most racist piece I have ever come across, let alone create.

Last night I watched A Lot Like Love, MY FAVOURITE ROMANCE COMEDY NEXT TO JUNO, and I watched bits of How I Met Your Mother - season 3.

Niz you're an imbecile lol

Song of the night:

Biko by Bloc Party

I'm Going Away, I'm Going Away, I'm Going Away

I'm going away to be alone,

I'm coming back with answers

A-ahh, a-ahh.

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I had a nightmare on the night I fell for you.
We were making our way to a party on the farm, walking on the golden gravel road which stretched. Surrounded by fields of green, wheat stalks and sunshine flitting in the blue sky, I walked ahead of you to see if you would catch up to me. But to my surprise, you didn't, you stayed behind and walked with your friends. We reached the party and I dropped the cake. The celebrant told me, "Honey you needn't to worry!" but I said nothing but sorries and ran away from embarrassment. You tried to run after me but held back, I ran down the winding golden gravel road - the journey home seemed a lot quicker than the journey to the party. I curled up in my room and cried.
I relieved myself and began to make my way back to the party. The journey to the party this time felt a lot more tense and lonely. The sky was morbid and grey, the winds violent and unwelcoming.
I reached the party house and everybody was gone. All the decorations were up, the candles on the muffins still burning, and the doors were left swinging open.
And that's when I realised that I had returned to find you gone.

This is an old dream.
I don't wanna do something I'm going to regret.

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This heart attack, I've gotta get away,

I'm not coming back.

LOUD IN MY EARS

Spent Father's day at Harbourtown and Costco. WOW that place is huge, it literally has everything. Eeevvveeerrryyyttthhhiiinnnggg from serviettes to milk to DIY cubby houses to $159,999 diamonds and plasma TVs. We then made our way to Austin's and hung out with the best friend; trying to put our legs behind our heads, making phone calls to almost everyone, Google-ing man tits and athletes foot and toe thumbs, and YouTube-ing meiosis square dancing and Finnhorses and native women giving birth on trees.

Love, Bonez.

Album of the night:

The Fray by The Fray

SOFT

I don't really wanna think about you right now.
Please get out of my head for a little while.

MILK

Estranged
Anxious
Indifferent
Antipathetic
Apathetic
Apprehensive
Distraught
Subtle
Contemptuous
CBF'd

The clown that I am, that everybody knows. Every night I wash off the thick, paint that conceals and cakes the face to create a facade, a front. Revealing the tragic reality, you'd wish you never saw it. I brush my teeth not to clean, but to expose the grime - the disdain and ugliness - and I crawl into bed and cry words of self-loathing.

And who said that you couldn't describe your feelings using words? I'd beg to differ.

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Friday
I got my ad. gen. tests back; the test on complex numbers and the other test on loci and those other things. Got a B on both, pretty shattered. I was aiming for a B+ at the very least. My parents' indifference towards my grades don't really make me feel better either,
"Honey, I honestly don't care if you get a bad grade. Heck, I don't want you to get good grades at all."
Don't believe they said that? Well I'd encourage you to ask my mother especially.
Met up with the MT after school at Bourke St. Maccas and saw Long and Lee as well. The missus and I bought tickets to watch Inglorious Basterds at Melbourne Central, my shout of course. And he paid for the popcorn, coke (woops, I typed cock) and Starburst Babies. Yum yum. The movie finished, we caught the train home and had a little heart-to-heart.
The Nigeria situation's ruining us both at the moment, and I was talking to my other best friend about it. I'm caught in a rut, torn in between what I should do and what I want to do. I honestly didn't think it'd affect us at all until he mentioned, "What would happen to us?"

Saturday
Had work and promised to buy little Beza a pacer just like mine, then got home to get changed for Matt and Rayvern's communion dinner celebration at Watergay's Hotel. I didn't end up going to Justin's surprise party 'cause I was grounded for coming home "late" the night before. Uh who else would call 9-9:30 late? Darn dad.
Hung out with Yen and Pio (mostly), Let and Mirah. Yen, Pio and I went crazy towards the end of the night, I honestly have not laughed and cried so much in my entire life.
I then got home and messaged Thea throughout the night and Michael just to update him with the news about Nigeria. Michael later called for a few mins (I rarely get to speak to him, mind you) and I stayed up till 1 chatting with the other best friend, Jon, while attempting to finish writing the rest of this blog.

Hello, I can't be fucked.
Love, Bonez.

Album of the week:

Aha Shake Heartbreak by Kings Of Leon