Love was changing the minds of pretenders,
while chasing the clouds away.
It was actually 6 days later.Nothing's changed. This town is full of dumb reminders, little things, big things. I want to go blind, I want to gain amnesia. Anything - just to rid the emotion-brooding image of your face and picture perfect memories from my head. Go away, go away. Can't you see how hard I'm trying? You think that I still hold onto these things, but I don't. I would prove the world to you, just so you'd believe me when I say I don't want anymore of this. I hate this, I hate you, passionately. They say that by expressing your hurt, it'll eventually soften up and disappear one day. Well it's been almost half a year, and still no results. I demand results. Why am I demanding? Everywhere I go, I get paranoid when I gain the instinct that you'll be just around the corner. I don't want to see you at all, in fear that I might break into tears. Tears of anger. But at the same time, I want to tell you how much I hate you. I'm speaking gibberish, I'm speaking out of sense. You make me go crazy, I can't stand it anymore. I don't want to think about it, but when I try not to think about it, I think about it because I'm trying not to think about it - which I eventually become glued to the thought of you until I can find something better to think about. I'm guessing that you've tried to help me rid of you? Well guess what? It didn't work! Thanks for the thought though, you totally made me go insane for a while. I bet you're probably thinking that I'm the typical crazy, clingy, obsessive ex-girlfriend. "Ooohh, get away." But I'm not! I swear to you I'm not. I usually get over things in a flash. I don't know what's wrong with me, I'm never like this. I want to do crazy things, like cliff dive. What am I talking about? My mind is thinking rapidly, I'd be stuttering if I was speaking. I feel so out of control.
This is what a girl in pain looks like.
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